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Psalm 63 is amazing, I see why it was said that David was the man after God’s Heart. Legit all David ever wanted more than anything is God, just God being God is totally enough. This is how I desire my heart’s posture to be like, I like many people are in a waiting season for what God had recently promised me and I confess my biggest fear is loving the promise more than the Promise Maker. Look no one is above idol worship, no one is above sin, no one is above anything hence we need Jesus, it is only through Him we can do all things. Even waiting…

Waiting well is the goal for me but more than waiting I seek to love God and place my focus on Him, I desire for God to abound His Love in me, to expand me so that I experience Him, Love in its absolute. Now of course God will tell us the promise then make us wait for it, but scripture actually says that God is the one who is actually being patient with us, it says that God is not slow to perform His promise and that is deep. God is actually patient with us because He is our Creator, He knows what we can handle and the capacity we have, God knows us more than ourselves…. duh He created us.

Therefore let us pursue Good and seek Him wholeheartedly, He will not fail us in our desire to pursue Him genuinely. If you feel like you are not genuine with God please confess it to Him, He is merciful and Just to forgive. He wis the only One who can change us, our desires and our intentions. He is worthy, He is really Worthy and very much Enough. Our desires are met in Him, but I pray our biggest desire be Him.

I will be the first to admit that waiting is not my strength for multiple of reasons, I like to have control, I thrive under pressure and love to keep things moving. But ever since my relationship with God things have changed dramatically and I give it all up to Jesus because I do not recognise myself anymore and I love it!

Guys waiting on God is beautiful, it is a journey that is intended to refine us, to build and most importantly to place our focus on God. Waiting in your own strength is horrendous but the Holy Spirit that has given us patience as one of His fruits and self control helps us to wait on God with expectancy while enjoying the ride toward what it. It is actually not about the promise or the blessing but it is much more to do with how we journey through life with the Holy Spirit. Remember it is not a destination, so the blessing is not the “finishing point” but rather a beginning of something new. After the blessing there will be another blessing afterwards it is recurring for as long as we are alive.

Therefore, it is important to remember that it is not and will never be about the blessing or even the promise it is really about the Blesser, the Promise Maker, God Himself. Jesus of course needed to save us, He was blessed to be the Chosen One that dies for humanity and has established eternal life for us all if we believe in Him but to Him Jesus it was really about obeying the Father. His focused was and will always be God the Father, His Will, His desire Him alone it the main priority.

Our blessings can easily become our idols because we shift our focus from the Blesser to the blessing so the waiting season helps us to dig deep, to seek first the Kingdom of God and all these other things will be added to us. The waiting helps us to trust, focus and love God first and let Him be our anchor, make His presence enough. So trusting that even if the blessing does not come (which we know it will because God is faithful to His Word) it will still be okay because God by Himself is enough His existence is what we desire the most.

So I encourage us to love God and ask Him to love Him more than anything, more than the blessing itself, and we will experience that God’s presence is really what we seek after. So because it is not always easy we should make it a habit to repent and ask God to forgive us for shifting our focus from Him and thank Him and allow Him to change our focus and renew our minds, our hearts and intentions.

Sooo first time on here since the year of 2024 and you already know sis went through some growing and pruning over the last few months but man has it been worth it! God has been so faithful and so consistent with me that I love now living absolutely dependent upon Him like genuinely I have seen that pruning seasons are so important. God teaches you to trust Him completely and it mostly happens when you do not have any other choice but to trust Him. But it gets better when you embrace the pruning because you end up living dependent on God and as it should because I have now realised it is just so much better doing life with God, through God, in God and for God. Making it about Him makes things just so meaningful and fulfilling. Indeed when I have God I have everything.

That was a long introduction but you cannot blame me after being away for so long, the topic I want to discuss is actually about being blessed to be a blessing. Up until recently the Holy Spirit has shown me that it is not about me, like ofcourse God will bless me it is what He desires always but I have realised that the blessings that come from God sometimes have very little to do about me and more about the impact it will have on other people. The blessings are from God, and for His Glory and honestly I would not have it any other way, it is so fulfilling so rewarding so completing to live for God because you realise it is not about you, and it has never been about you. I know it seems rather odd because I mean if it is not about me where is the joy in that? where is the reward? but having it not be about you releases and frees you from so much burden, worry and stress of what why how when etc.

I now have the confidence that things will and are working out together for my good and that I do not have to control it, if it is of God it will be so beautiful and will exceed my expectations. Like my pastor always says, God will do it in His timing, in His way, for His Glory and that is how I like it.

I really want to say that it is easy to focus on God but I would be lying, everything in us urges us to focus on ourselves, on our strength, abilities, challenges, the external things really and in most cases on things that we have no complete control over. The accuser wants us to place our focus on our weaknesses, incapabilities and flesh because taking our focus off God makes us sink just like Peter. I almost rejected God’s blessing because I thought I was not able and did not qualify, I was scared but then I read what God said to Isaac in Genesis 26 when He said for Isaac to not go to Egypt but to remain in the land where there was famine. God told Isaac to remain in the place where he wanted to run from by promising Isaac that He will be with him and will bless him.

Now God did not tell Isaac to do the one thing he did not want to do and promised Isaac that everything will be okay and that the famine will end etc. but rather God gave His Word as insurance to say that He will be with Isaac and on top of that will bless him. I can understand now that God has me in places that scare me and gives me opportunities that terrify me because He is able to. God does not bless me based on my capacity or knowledge or anything that has to do with me really but solely based on Him and what He can do, nothing is hard for God in fact for God it is so easy because He is God. He is Sovereign and All Powerful He is Self Sufficient, now placing my focus on God gives me strength and courage. It does not have to scare me because my God is able.

He calls me to do things that are far beyond my reach because He is with me and will bless me, God promotes me because of Him meaning I will do this thing that scares me because God is with me and will bless me not because I can do this thing or have the wisdom or resources for it but solely because God is with me. Him being with me places me at an advantage, Him being with me makes me victorious, His presence brings me peace I do not have to fight or defend myself because He will do that for me and even exceed my expectations. He is the focus not me.

Often times when experiencing tragic situations or things that hurt us beyond our comprehension we like to question God and His presence. As if He is only with us during the comforting and great times but God changes not. I experienced something traumatic in the last week and my first thought was why did God allow that to happen, the response that the Holy Spirit gave me is that God was still in control even in that tragedy, Just like God did not prevent Daniel and his mates from being thrown into the fiery furnace what God did was much greater as He showed His reliability even in our worst situations. God protected them in the fire!

I like to ask God to take control in my life, and so I should right? but at times our human pride like to think that we are the ones in control, thus when we experience situations where we have no control over we wonder if God really is in control when in actual fact He has been in control all this time and still remains in control in impossible of situations. God is glorified more in circumstances that are impossible, where it is vivid that I took no part in that, but those situations do not happen often, so we overlook the fact that God is in control even when I am showering, or eating or washing dishes. Things that I believe I can do by my own strength not realising that no sis it is God who enables us to wash those dishes and even own those dishes to begin with.

So instead of questioning God’s presence, we should question our reliance and dependance upon His Spirit that is in us and that surround us, He is reliable and in control God is consistent at being God He is faithful and will always be there.

Before we go any further I would like to sincerely apologise for not posting much here, it is inexcusable and will not even attempt to justify my absence. But I come with Good News, God is still Good and He Alone is still seated on the Throne. He remains All Powerful, All Sufficient and in control, He indeed changes not! Now back to the topic at hand, it is easy being God, this sounds kind of controversial like how can someone say it is easy being God without them having experience what it is like being God.

Well my response is that no I am not God and I am glad that there is only One God who has been God from the very beginning, in fact He is the beginning and the end! I boldly say that it is easy being God because often times we like to reduce God to our size or a reduced image of Himself and thus making us limit God. For instance I was reading a psalm which David wrote to glorify God saying He parted Red Sea and spoke about all the Wow things that God has done including creating Heaven and Earth from nothing.

It dawned on me that God has been God forever, it is so easy for God to part the Red Sea because, of course the sea will obey its Creator. God did not sweat when creating the universe, He simply said “Let there be light” and it happened God did not have to exercise first or practice He is God, it is Who He is. I love that God does not explain Himself to Moses, He just said “I Am the Great I Am” God is limitless, doing miracles is something jaw dropping for us but for God it is easy and effortless.

I say we should stop limiting this Great God, and continue to trust Him for the impossible, because only in Him they become possible. He asked is anything too hard for Him? and certainly it is so easy for God to be God because that is Who He is.

I enjoy writing and reflecting on this platform because when I write here It is normally after I go through some of the life’s pressures. Now this is just a disclaimer for this page but most times I come and write here after Homecell or when I realise that there is something the Holy Spirit continues to place in my heart but most times it is both. The Holy Spirit knows even when I do not voice it what gets to me, what goes on in my mind, my frustrations etc etc. and often than not I always tend to ask this question of how will God do something.

So for instance it could be something that I am struggling to fix and I would ask that question, or recently I know God has made a promise in my heart many years back and now I feel like God is taking too long and for a while now I have been trying to “help” God make His promise over my life come true. Typical human right? trying to figure out how God is going to do something so that I can have a sense of control! Yet God says in His Word that His thoughts are HIGHER than ours. Imagine a mere human being me trying to make sense of how the God that parted the Red Sea for the Israelites and paused time for Joshua will make His promises over me come to life.

I know I am not alone and we see this even from when Sarah laughed when she was told that she will have a baby of her own, we wear ourselves out trying to see how God will do something that we forget to enjoy the ride getting there, we think that for some reason there must be something wrong with us or the promise because it is not happening the way we planned or visualised it.

Well I will tell you, I am glad I serve the God of impossibilities, the Most High God, The Great I Am, All Sovereign All Knowing. That I can completely trust in His way, His timing and know that it will happen for His Glory. Even the process that leads to the promise is a journey of His Grace sustaining us. So I challenge myself and the rest of you to stop trying to be God and be the sheep that follow the Shepherd, He took into account our oopsies in His Master Plan for our lives anyway and He still chooses to Love us and Favor us because of His Grace.

So be encouraged to know that it will happen, in His own way, in His timing and for His Glory! in Jesus Name Amen.

These two apostles play critical roles in the life story of Jesus Christ. Both Judas and Peter walked with Jesus during His ministry days, they both followed Jesus and experienced His teachings and acts. However they also have their own share of betraying Jesus during the time when He most needed support and it is easy for us to judge their betrayals toward Jesus because we think just like Peter, that we are above rejecting God, that it could not happen to any of us. Well that is untrue and we see it especially in the case of Peter, with Judas we can justify it and say perhaps his greed got the better of him or that satan entered him etc etc, but one thing is certain we need God in order to remain faithful to God period!

So pride lets us believe we are above certain things or mistakes that people in the Bible did because we “know” better, well scripture proves that often sin is committed by people who know better take for instance Eve we think we would not have accepted the fruit but we continue right now to sin against God with the very thing we repented from last night! Hence God warns us to not judge others lest He judges us well, and we all know that there is always something that we can get judged for hence that woman found in adultery was not stoned by even single person.

Now back to Judas and Peter we see especially in John’s gospel how they betrayed Jesus, John 18 specifies how Judas betrayed Jesus and was called the traitor and in the very act of this betrayal we see how Peter heroically cut an the ear of one of the persons brought by Judas to arrest Jesus. Pretty expected since we are of the view that Peter loved Jesus and would do anything for Him right? But why do we think that for some reason Judas did not love Jesus?

Peter also betrayed Jesus but this is unexpected because we see how he cuts someone’s ear off for Jesus’ sake and is seemingly the number one disciple of Jesus Christ however in the very same chapter 18 but down to verse 15 and 25 we see how Peter denies Jesus when He most needed a friend in fact Peter saw the hurt in Jesus’ eye when the rooster crowed the third time because Jesus did predict this beforehand and Peter denied it.

But what choices did these two men who betrayed Jesus do? One made a choice to give up while the other chose to not give up and in fact repent as a result of the love that Jesus Christ showed him scripture says Peter swam toward Jesus I guess he felt he could not get to Jesus fast enough, if you remember when Mary and them found that the tomb was empty they were told to tell the disciples and a special mention of Peter was made in Mark 16v7. Peter experienced the forgiveness and true love of God by means of His Grace when Peter least deserved it and that could raise a question that could maybe Judas have experienced the same forgiveness if he chose to stay alive? this proves that separation from God really results in death because Judas still loved Jesus but he did not believe that Jesus could love him past his mistakes hence the choice he made.

God is Good, Peter experienced His goodness while Judas chose to not believe in that goodness. Our choice should be to always believe and know that God is good despite how bad things seem.

So it has been a month since I have been this side and honestly so much has changed including my view of God. This is partially because when going through the journey with God you get to learn so much about Him and experience His realness for yourself and it is amazing because this builds up faith. In any case the Holy Spirit has been leading me recently to study the book of Romans and it makes me drool because of how good and delicious the Word is.

Apostle Paul teaches and reminds us that there is only one way to be saved and that is through Jesus Christ. He shows us that even from the beginning with Abraham being called righteous it was because of his faith in God, however our nature as humans finds it difficult to accept Grace because we believe that we always have to work in order to earn something. Fortunately for us Grace is not earned it is received, being called a child of God is based on His Grace because He chose us to be His, He chose to love us unconditionally and it was not based on anything we did, do, will do or never did.

He said His Grace is sufficient and I realized that in my flawed nature He responds with Grace, My performance for God will not make Him love me any more or any less He loves me because He is Love it is in Him it is Who He is we just have to receive it without thinking that there is a hidden motive behind His Grace.

God, I stand in awe of how amazing You are, You bring me fulfillment, acceptance, justification, identity and freedom. Most of all You chose to sacrifice Jesus Christ Your only Son, Father so that I a flawed human being who could never measure up, can dwell with You eternally and experience Your Glory. I love you and please help me to continue falling in love with You my Maker.

Let me tell you this draft is going to be a short one but powerful nevertheless. Recently I have been asking myself and God if I am doing enough. A part of me knows I am not for instance instead of doing something I know is important I would just choose to lay around and chill but often than not I know God knows my character. I have felt like I have not been doing enough you know that part of there is a me part and a God part yes well I have felt like man God wants to do His part but I am delaying Him because I have not been doing my part like I should.

Well last night the Holy Spirit answered me with Exodus 14 v13-14 and man did I need that. I have not been able to write my proposal in fact my Word has been down now It is clear that this delay that I am experiencing God allowed it. I am so used to doing things and putting in self effort that when God asks me to be still I feel like I am not doing enough. Right at Exodus 13 God decided to take the Israelites out of Egypt using a long route and even though I believe that this year is my year of Supernatural Acceleration as my Pastor declared, I believe God is taking me through the long route because of the extent of the promise He made me.

So God thank you for helping me to be still and know that You will fight for me, You will let me know when you need me to pitch up but I will be still and continue to seek You and obey You by the Power of the Holy Spirit. Help me to remain patient and to endure in this season of waiting because I know Great things are ahead of me.